DAP ME FRESH

lets do a little update on life real quick

1.busted my ankle, limpin for 6 weeks 2. swimmings started and i cant swim yet -_-….3. school is soon as heck.. 2011 WHAT THE HELL IS UP?!4. i cleaned my room

so as i was cleaning my room today, i came across my old journals and lists that i make all the time. it was so great to read back on events and emotions that i was feeling two years ago. it was even better reading my own thoughts and knowing exactly how i would have said them outloud. i even traced the development of one big event in my life and how sooo many things when wrong. if it was someone else reading my journal, they would be screaming just like in the movie “no dumb b****, DO NOT DO THAT, WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU”.. but i guess that made me realize that when your IN a situation its way harder to analyze it than if you were out of it..

moving along.. MEMORIES… i came upon thee FUNNIEST things that have happened in my life.. like 10th grade Chemistry class with my brother for ever DJ, or the College Tour that I went on with the most amazing people I have ever met …

“If I were a spider, I would climb these walls, GRETA HOLD MA FEET”

looking back on both good and bad memories showed me that I have grown so much in the past few years and that I’ve had moments i should never forget about, even the ones that make me upset or bring upon bad feelings, in the end its all for the purpose of growing wise..

so take a few seconds out of your day and write something down.. anything

whether it be… the weather.. or what your mom said or who pissed you off, just write it down.. itll make looking back even more memorable, meaningful, and HIGHLARIOUS

im out

GRETAAAA

ha, Kasha was right on the semi-dead blog because i almost forgot the password for this account

BUT, less GOOOOOOOO less GET IT

alright, so i just got back from my homeland Lithuania last night and I’ve had alottttt of things on my mind

the reason I went out there was because my Grandmother passed away, Rest in Peace Baba.. she had cancer and I know she’s in a way better place right now with no pain and no more worries that she didn’t deserve

i don’t feel like recapping on everything because there is WAYY to much to tell(about the summer in general) so i think i’ll do it through pictures when i get the time to upload them but there’s a few things that have been on my mind lately and i feel like i need to get it alll out.

1.do unto others as you would like to be done unto you.. OK OLD RULE but people seem to forget that we’re all humans and we function the same way at the end of the line

we think

we cry

we laugh

we hurt

we love

eat, poop, sleep.. etc.

now let’s not forget people have a past, a history that has made them who they are, and reasons for why they act the way they do.. these reasons might inlcude insecurities they hold, images they are trying to uphold, and the stage that theyre at currently in their lives.. the actions that you see a person do or the words you hear them speak have more than just that present-moment significance.. they hold a history of alll the years they’ve been alive and all the things they have been through. before you judge someone for what they say or how they say it, understand WHY they’re doing it

now i know that’s hard for people you might NOT know.. but at least do it for those you DO know or are around enought to care about.. people remember, we are all HUMAN no matter how hard we try to differentiate ourselves from each other

2.take a day out of your life and pay attention to the little things you do.. the way you respond to questions, the way you act in front of new people, just in general the person you are.. OBSERVE yourself and then try to understand what makes you the person you are, and be completely honest.. if your insecure about yourself in someway and that comes out in an action, pinpoint it, understand it, and do with it as you please.. at the end of the day you do what you want to do

3. that brings me to my last little rant topic.. sometimes we forget that we have all the opportunity we want to change the situations we are in.. i am a strong believer that anything is possible.. anything, especially if you WANT to make it happen, excuses are the only thing that hold you back.. and i know that from 1st hand experience.. sometimes we are afraid of how powerful we really can be

now that was a hefty post, but it was just a few thoughts that were lingering in the noggin

anyway, they’ll be more things coming realllllllllllllllllllly soon

-G.

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okay I’m going in(thats what she said)

WE havent updated this blog in forever. It’s almost dead, but im resurrecting it now.

So much to go over first off, MY BIRTHDAY. aug1 turned 17. I feel good. I feel older. I feel right. It was a good time, just wished my sister was here. Greta is in Lithuania chillin, farmin, doin the damn lithi thang.

Igght here I go im about to rant, so buckle up

I’m starting to be independent and not having to need anybody. I used to base my life around my social life, friends. Turns out I forced. I have 4 friends tops, they are good people, that I have experienced things with on a different level. Everyone else is just an acquaintance to me. Another thing FAMILY. Family is so so so important. You’ll have those people forever, friend come and go.Family loves you through thick or thin. I realised the importance of family when I went to Virginia this summer with my cousin, who I had no relationship with before the trip, and my brother. That week was life changing. Made me see that family is the creme of the crop, and its beneficial to always work on the relationships within your family. Now I can actually say I have a relationship with my cousin, I can actually genuinely say that I love him. Also I’m trying to respect my parents more, sometimes I get caught up in my teenage moments and lash out, but I’m trying.

BONG

Another thing, COLLEGE. PRIORITIES. I’m doing pretty well with getting everything in order and pacing myself. I realised getting those important things done is worth much more than a night out “partying” with people who don’t mean much to you. I so rather spend a night in watching a movie with someone I love, then at a party worrying about gun, knives, and fist. When did talking get so “outplayed” Cant fight with words anymore? Intelligence has gone out the window for some.

MONG

rekindling my childhood friendships is a fun time. I’ve been getting close to my bes friends I had in junior high and its pretty damn easy and fun(That’s what she said). When you’ve been used to someone so long, a year apart really doesn’t damage anything(thats what she said).

WAP

So I went on chatroulette. SMDH(shake my damn head) when you get past all the offensive material, it’s a good time. I met mad people my age. some cool and some not so much -_-. But I did meet a new friend. Facebooked him. Pretty cool. If your reading this then WADDDDAAAAAP.

Les get it

All the stuff I tripped over in junior year was a flux. Realised none of that was worth it. I should have just chilled.

AND IM OUT, (thats what she said)

KASHA BING

So I’m sitting in Peer Mediation listening to Drake(hint the title of this blog)

So I was thinking….

Its way easier to say something than to actually do it. I find myself always saying I’m going to commit to something and it just doesn’t happen. Instead I do the exact opposite. It’s like I’m in the ring and I’m fighting myself. BUT LOOSING EACH TIME.

So I figured I just need to control my decisions and really really really focus on them.

Kudos to Greta and her last post..INSPIRATIONAL

Our new quest is being satisfied.

Is it good or bad? Is it always good to strive for something? What if you reached all your goals and your satisfied? Should you settle for that or take a leap and try something at a different calibre.

Greta and I came  to the conclusion that don’t settle for satisfactory. It’s good to feel uneasy. Although as people we always strive to be …whole.

signed,

Kasharena